Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommy’s out there. In case you didn’t know it or you are doubting yourself, you are killing it, 100% rocking the mommy thing. I had a plan in my mind for the last week of what I wanted my mother’s day to look like this year. I think a lot of people would agree with me that as mom’s, we have these expectations, that can sometimes be unrealistic, and it can leave us feeling empty, disappointed, or maybe even make us question our purpose in this motherhood thing. In the past, I definitely had some unrealistic expectations, they looked like this-everyone is going to get along and shower me with love and affection, we are going to play games, enjoy a lovely meal, and it’s going to be perfect! Well, what’s perfect anyway? Perfection is something that we make up in our minds based on unreality that we see in movies or read about in books-but it’s not-perfection is Jesus. So I planned my day for me today, it was a little unconventional, but it was exactly what I wanted. I’ve been a mom for almost 13 years, well more than 13 counting the first pregnancy that we lost, I have 3 handsome, active, and sensitive boys, and an awesome husband but after being home with my people, whom I love for the last 56 days, Mother’s Day took on a new meaning. In those 13 years, I had forgotten how to do alone. Alone-when my kids were little was foreign and as they got bigger, alone scared me because I wasn’t used to it. I have adjusted to alone over the past years with all my kids being in school, but now life is different. And as Christopher declared at dinner last night my plan to spend the day in the basement by myself(which when I say it out loud sounds depressing), and everyone looked at me with sad puppy dog eyes, I confirmed that this was indeed what I wanted to do. I wanted to go down to our beautiful basement, sprawl on the couch with a good book, watch movies(Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day and my favorite Mom’s Night Out), and not clean or cook a thing. And that folks is what I did-GUILT FREE! I read a book and I colored. I ended up inviting my people down for a movie, because they actually wanted to spend time with me today. It was, after 56 days at home, and so many hours parenting on my own, exactly what I needed and I am so thankful to my husband for giving me that luxury today. At dinner tonight my husband commented on how there were times in the past when he would take the boys out on occasion and give me time to do whatever I wanted, but I was paralyzed-not knowing what to do. I don’t know about you, but to me-that says growth! So on this Mother’s Day I’m thankful for my husband, my 3 wonderful kids, my mom who was with me for just under the first two years of being a mom, my mother in law, my sister, my sister in law,  and all the awesome mom’s in my life who walk alongside me, encourage me, laugh with me, cry with me and so much more.

Be well.