My first born is a senior. My first born… Therefore I have no point of reference as to how to think or feel, no timeline for all the when’s and how’s, no experience at all except for my own, nearly 26 years ago, but the world is a different place and my child is different than I was at this age. I was so broken and lost. He is motivated, driven, level headed, and so smart…

School has been in session for about 3 weeks now so my eyes have been leaking at random times for about the last 4-5 weeks at all the last firsts, at all the milestone moments, at, well, everything!!!! Just the thought of how at the end of this school year his childhood will be over and all I’ll be left with are memories is enough to do the trick.

I have a laundry list of things I wish I would have done differently, ways I screwed up, words I can’t take back because that’s how words spoken work. But at the end of the day, more accurately at the end of this very big year, I don’t want to have an ounce of regret. I don’t want to rush a single moment as I know it will go by fast enough on its own. I want to be present and treasure it all in my heart. I want to be thoughtful, quiet, patient, and observant as this child of mine figures out life, navigates the present and makes decisions about his future. I want to guide him with wisdom and listen to him carefully. I want to speak the truth in love into his heart. I want to be calm if ever his heart grows anxious or weary. I want him to know, without a doubt that he can come share his victories as well as his failures and that I will always have hugs to give, a shoulder to lean on, and a safe place to rest. I want him to know that he is loved unconditionally by his family and by his creator and that when he finds himself alone, he is never really alone as his God is always with him.

If anyone reading this has a senior, drop me a comment with their name so I can be praying for them-and you! Also, if you have any tips and tricks, any advice, any wisdom to share, I would love to hear that too! God bless you all and thanks for reading!